I invited Delaine Gately to share her personal story of initial emergence into a more authentic life for her. She titles it Canyon Memories
“I found freedom on the Colorado River, riding the rapids at the bottom of the Grand Canyon. The great Mother River taught me to honor myself. The canyon, that mystical place was so immense. The colors so rich the waters of the river were constantly changing from deep greens to butter scotch gold. The walls became rainbows of rust, peach, creams and browns all so beautiful. My life seemed small in comparison.
There was something about the clear hot air and the uncontrolled plunge of the waters that stirred my soul. I would spend my nights laying on the desert floor looking into the star filled sky; I could hear the wild burrows bay echoing off the dark canyon walls, as I watched the bats swirled like black clouds in the sky. The stars were so clear and bright against a blue black sky. I fell into my soul. My heart opened and I could see for the first time that I held the key to my future; I was the one who had to change.
I felt mystical shivers down my spine, as I became one with the spirit land. Looking in to my soul, I heard my heart cry; it was a prime evil coming from deep with in. No more lies, no more deceit; I found the truth there on the desert floor I heard my heart confess, I had lied and deceived my own soul. I had accepted betrayal. I was the thief of my own peace. I alone held the key to my contentment. I did not loose my happiness I exchanged it for anger and pain I gave it away and only I could get it back, I had to change my life’s direction. To be true to myself I could no longer pretend that he was the reason for my pain I controlled my own destiny. I had to break the cycle; I had to cut the ties that bound me so tight I had to break free, I had to let go of a dream that would never come true.
I alone was responsible for my own soul. I had to defend and protect myself. The beauty and strength of the canyon gave me a knowing of my own inner truth, and that understanding had set me free. Deep in that ancient canyon, my life changed. No longer drifting in despair I would take the reins; I would take control of my future. Those dark and mystical nights on the canyon floor opened my eyes I finally understood the lies I had told myself. In that great canyon at the river edge, I found my truth. I found a new determination, I had been liberated I was finally free to begin living my own life As I packed my bag and bedroll, I knew my life had changed I left my broken self-back there in the sand. A strong new woman stepped into the bus for the long hot ride up and out of that Grand Canyon; my life would never be the same.
JUNE OF 1979 I TRAVELED 14DAYS, 246 MILES DOWN THE COLORADO RIVER FROM LAKE POWELL THROUGH THE GRAND CANYON TO LAKE MEADE JULY OF 1979 AFTER 23 YEARS OF A FAILED MARRIAGE I FILED FOR DIVORCE I HAVE NO REGRETS I NEVER LOOKED BACK”
Thank you Delaine for sharing the story of your liberation within.
My take-aways from her experience are:
1.Take responsibility for our circumstances in the material and spiritual world,
with guidance from within and above
2. Summon the courage needed instead of activating denial or complacency
3. Let your soul lead you
4. Meditate to hear your soul or spend some time in nature – it will occur naturally
What do you take away? Please share your comment below.